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The end

I’m done.

Figured I’d use this special date to call it a career.

Thanks for reading.

Friday night archive rant

There are nights I wonder what it would be like, if I drank.

Just got done watching Monk.

Thinking about streams of consciousness.

Reevaluating Twitter.

Working on proper punctuation.

Realizing that most of my best stuff will sit, unread, in the archives, never seen by a human other than me. That really saddens me. I guess that’s why I don’t think about it much.

It could drive me to drink, if I was into that sort of thing.

MySpace will be deleted, soon.

Last.fm is kind of pointless.

Flickr sounded like a good idea at the time.

Six years of stuff, and I’m no closer to being an internet superstar than Adrian Monk is to solving the murder of his wife.

I’ve got election fever!

I’ve got election fever. And by that, I mean, “I get this sick feeling every time somebody comes near me with something political.” The United States has had to endure a presidential political cycle like no other, spanning almost from the day George Bush was re–elected. And I’m sick of it.

Know what I really hate? Personal blogs with some candidate’s logo on it. I’m not one to try and stifle anybody’s freedom of expression, but if I want to know who I should vote for, I’ll figure it out myself.

This is a personal gripe, actually. Some people feel comforted that they’re going to a website that sides with them on whatever particular issue. I’m not one of those people.

The whole point of dropping out of politics back in 2006 was because of the utter nonsense. I came to the realization that most bloggers were so naive that they thought candidates responded to them in a real, genuine way. It’s foolish to think this, because of the influence of those same bloggers.

So really, people, save it.

Next President

PSA: Kill me if I do a link post

I’ve had some website or other for running on 8 years now. In that time, I’ve seen many a meme come and go, all sorts of bad ideas, and many good ideas. But mostly, it’s all been about the content.

Yes, that sweet, sweet content. Content is such a commodity these days that entire social networks are devoted to little more than getting you to create a profile (e.g. LinkedIn, MySpace, Facebook). In the past couple of weeks, I’ve been deleting profiles like that. I’m not a commodity maker.

How that translates to this site is that I strive to produce the best content I can. Link posts are not good content. Link posts are what happens when you’re out of ideas, and you need something to keep loyal followers coming back. It’s what we, in the blogging bidness, call ‘weak sauce.’

Past tense, I’m guilty of copious link posts. A plethora of posts with nothing but sweet, juicy, low–effort link–y goodness. I was part of the problem.

Somehow, I figured I needed some of that blog content if I wanted to keep the peeps coming back. It turned out to be a losing game, and seriously not worth the effort.

For example, I had the ‘feature’ I called [Flagged]. The concept was that I was going to take the most interesting posts from my feed reader and put them on a page. From all my statistical calculations and website data, they were the lowest–performing post I ever wrote.

Plus, you know, people come to this site — and, from what I can gather, your site — to read me (or you). If they wanted to be somewhere else, they’d go there instead. Not everybody’s Glenn Reynolds.

So yes, I’m serious — shoot me. Right in the face.

So yes, I’m serious — shoot me. Right in the face. I don’t want to be part of the problem when the solution is so obvious. There’s almost no reason to chunk out a bunch of links and call it blogworthy. It’s people like that (my former self included) that make it easy to turn off the internet (at least for a little while).

That’s not to say that some people can’t link things up on the internet quite well. Some people gain quite a bit of notoriety for it (e.g. Glenn Reynolds, John Gruber). But they are the exception, not the rule. And — let’s face it — the only reason you’re doing a link post is because you’re out of ideas, isn’t it?

That’s what I thought. So, yeah. Right in the face. Make with the shooting.

Aside on del.icio.us

I heart del.icio.us — but it’s just a service. If I didn’t care so little about the links, I’d serve them off my own page. But the value of the link tends to go down, dramatically, with time. What I found, over the past two years, is that link traffic from trackbacks and Google tends to bring you no useful traffic.

That’s why I decided to go with off–site storage of the links. Disposable links like this don’t have a lot of staying power, honestly. People click them, then they’re gone. No sense wasting a lot of my time rebuilding the wheel, just for the hopes of getting some ad revenue.

Where you can find me (the Linkness story)

In 2006, it seems I started a trend towards using WordPress as a platform for writing and linking. The concepts isn’t unique, it’s just I’ve noticed more and more people moving to WordPress, and shutting the comments off. I’ve always thought that Movable Type is perfect for a blog written that way, yet people are ditching that platform to move to something that’s built for ordinary blogging.

The first page I worked on, when putting this site together in WordPress was a subdomain with its own catchy title: “With a linkness.” While trying to copy the more famous bloggers of the time, I was using tools that were wholly incapable of completing the task. Again, Movable Type was, and is, a better tool more adequately suited linking and logs. It wasn’t until I started looking at the different social networks that I found my solution.

One fateful day, I signed up with a del.icio.us account. Then all my questions were answered, and all my troubles were gone. I’d figured out how to make this happen. And as I ventured out into the web, my off–site link hosting led me to some other avenues of expression.

In 2007, I burned out, and rekindled, then burned out again. Subtle life changes made me care less for the adoring of my internet fans, and more willing to take some risks. In addition to taking risks, I’ve also grown tired of working for my social credits. That means that I’ve actually deleted some accounts, because they don’t fulfill any useful purpose, and they waste my time.

So, now down to three. There’s others out there, but I can’t remember (or delete) them all. But you’ll see these three mentioned more than once on the site, and featured on the Linkness page. Here’s a brief description of the services, and what conned me into using them.

Twitter

Random outbursts of creativity, 140 characters at a time. Short–form micro–blogging, where brevity will force perspective. Can I tell you that I love this thing? Because I do. I love it.

I’m amazed at how I’m now able to record some of the (sometimes) crazy things I think of to write. That I have the chance to share my inanity makes it worth the hassle. I like it so much, you can see the latest update (or tweet, in Twitter parlance) on every page of the site.

Flickr lies, do not trust it

The de facto leader image sharing and hosting service. Obviously, this is where the images go, but also the screenshots I take. It’s easy to hit the shift+command+4 and upload the stuff on my desktop. Though I’ve been hesitant to use it like this before, now I’m seeing how capturing images and showcasing them there, that way is the proper way to share.

That, and taking some proper photographs would require me to go outside. Can’t do that, can I?

del.icio.us

Where I waste most of my valuable linking prowess. It’s mostly technology–related, but I do get some other geekery in there. It’s always great fun if you’re looking for somewhere to be diverted.

I’ve rolled all three of these services in one, through the miracle of “The Internet”. Now, you too can follow everything I do, say, think, or believe by simply adding this feed to your feed reader/aggregator of choice. And no, I’m not going to explain what a feed reader/aggregator is.

Follow me, join me, yada yada yada.

Subscribe to Linkness in a feed reader

Populist

I find myself in an odd position. Today, I can’t much more than I’ve become a populist, even though that’s the only thing I could be described as being. The dichotomy inside of me (I’ve always wanted to say that) leads me to become one of the pack, while remaining on the outside, on my own.

It’s a familiar position for me, this populism, and something I attempt to avoid. Over the years I’ve tried in vain to either break away from convention, or to embrace it totally. That middle ground continually draws me, singing its siren song of harmony and discontent. Because that is what it is, here — stuck in the middle of the road.

Now, there’s safety there, true. That’s the real draw of it, you see. It’s always safer to stay with the rest of the school than to go swimming out on your own. Safer in the middle.

I still have to explain how clicking something makes it editable — that’s how it should be, and how Windows isn’t.

After another philosophical bout with Apple over their overly–politicized home page, I took a chance and looked at Ubuntu Linux. It is, in my mind, like 500 lawyers at the bottom of the ocean — it’s a good start. In fact, if this were 1995, I’d say they had the goods to put Microsoft out of business. But it isn’t 1995, and they’re barely going to damage the reputation (or much dent the market–share) of Windows anytime soon.

It’s good to have alternatives, but people stay with what they know. I convinced my father to get a Mac in 2004, and he’s still learning how to use the computer. He still wants to do things the right–click Windows way, where nested menus hide all the functions that should be obvious. I still have to explain how clicking something makes it editable — that’s how it should be, and how Windows isn’t.

Even though I’m not the greatest fan of Apple these days, it helps them that nobody else is putting out a competitive product. Mac OS X isn’t what everybody uses, but it’s used more than the bleeding–edge stuff like Ubuntu, and a lot less than Windows, used by the legions.

I tend to avoid being to far out in front, or too far in the back. Character flaw or hidden genius, I tend to go for what’s behind door number two. That’s why, for the entirety of 2007, I used Movable Type to power my small blogging empire. WordPress has become the leader of the blogging soft world, with literally dozens of other, smaller projects coming behind.

My constant predilection for the second–place finisher constantly leads me work to help that platform, regardless of my own needs or desires. Maybe there was a little bit of that while working with Ubuntu that made me want to get them competitive, I’m not sure. But it follows a trend I’ve seen myself doing, that I install a new content management system about once a year, usually around now.

In 2004, it was Mambo that led me to TextPattern in 2005. The WordPress press for 2.0 got me interested in that in 2006. And you know about 2007. Going back to WordPress is odd for me, since it goes against my normal instincts.

I’m giving up a deluxe condo on a private beach to live downtown in a tourist trap.

That’s not the only retrofit change, either. Just as Movable Type did everything I ever wanted from it, Ma.gnolia is a fantastic, feature–filled application that nobody I know uses. No amount of my conning, cajoling, or even bribing get me anyone over there that I genuinely cared to hear from. Great resources and people who were innovators, yes, but nobody I think I’d hit it off with in real life.

That, of course, is the disappointment, for me. There comes a time when you can’t fight the majority. When your will is broken, and it’s just easier to stay where it’s safe, and where you feel comfortable. In this instance, I’m giving up a deluxe condo on a private beach to live downtown in a tourist trap.

It isn’t part of something new or avant–garde, but it’s safe. Like a mouse’s nest. I’m not exactly thrilled about the location, but I’m hoping that what it lacks in ascetics and features, it’ll make up for in good intentions. Or something like that.

Deciding to return to this…blogging thing…was a tough decision. The only way to justify it, in my mind, was to stop trying to save the world, if you’ll pardon my cliché. If I’m really going to tell you what I think, in this mildly unfiltered way, it has to be about what I think, and who I am.

Sometimes, who I am is not all that exciting. That’s not entirely a bad thing, of course. Find somebody who’s exciting all the time, and I’ll show you some frazzled parents, lots of ex’s, and some well–paid insurance agents. Excitement is fun in it’s own time, but not all the time.

I once heard what I believe to be a Chinese curse that goes, “may your life be interesting.” The curse is that they don’t write stories about the folks who stay with the school. They write them about the 300 who fought against thousands, about the prowess of a fighter, fated to die on the battlefield, about the soldiers merely trying to hold up a flag.

There are days I want people to write stories about me. Today is not that day.

Linking

One of the most infuriating things about the New York Times website is how it gets so stingy with links. If there is a link, it will go either to itself, or another, high–authority website. For example, if the story is about Digg, they may or may not link to Digg, but they will surely link to other coverage from the New York Times in the story. This bugs me.

At first, I figured the reason it caused me consternation was that the editors at the Times were just a bunch of stuck–up sticky–beaks who didn’t want to spread the linky love. Then I came to realize that this very site is an excellent example of the New York Times policy in play. After many revisions (this being version 8), the prior five years of archives just disappeared. Any story linked from the New York Times website would then end up at an error page.

Thus, the reason for my new linking policy. Before I get to the details of it, I’ll need to explain what is meant by ‘deep linking,’ why big authority sites avoid it, and why what they do a good idea.

Deep linking

Years ago, it was common for a website to only link to the home page of any other cited source. A site’s citation wouldn’t link to Yahoo.com/subdomain/source.html — a site would just link to Yahoo.com. As more people without formal training in writing etiquette started creating content on the internet, multiple versions of the rules appeared. The first formality to fall in this new era of citation was the courtesy of deep linking.

To ‘deep link,’ you need to have a target page, such as the above example. Instead of linking to the home page of Yahoo.com, you bypass that to get to the pertinent page. This is the same as going to a virtual back door to people you’ve never met. For some people, this is an intrusion of privacy, while other welcome it as a way to encourage interchanges.

Encouraging or discouraging deep–linking is more of a philosophical exercise than anything else. It is now such a standard practice that people think that discouraging deep–linking is the problem. While that (again) is more of a philosophical argument, the editorial argument is rather clear.

Stingy linkers

Going back to the New York Times, while I’ve a strong, negative opinion of their editorial policy, I can understand the logic. First of all, it is the newspaper of record, and what they print sure better be right or about 5 bajillion other sources will gleefully step up to take their shots. This is what happens when you are the market leader.

Besides the accuracy issue, there’s the stability issue. When nytimes.com sends a link your way, you’ve got to be sure the linked server can take it. It’s just not acceptable to send people somewhere that’s…not there. While I’m pretty sure the home page of Google can take a few links from me, the same could not be said from there to here.

You’ve ensured the accuracy of the link, and the strength of the linked server, are you sure you have the right page? That is the question that goes through the linker’s mind. Not to over–think this, but there’s a good possibility the objects of links may move. There’s no guarantee the linked will redirect your link to the correct place, or even tell you the page moved. Considering the scale of publishing at a national daily paper, they would need a full–time employee (at least) to stave off dead links.

Nuke ‘n Pave

Much like the accuracy, stability, and location, what about when a page just…disappears? Since there’s nothing old to look at, how can you ascertain what the linker was linking to? This is the problem for anyone linking to other sites.

A perfect example of a when a website completely clears its old content and starts anew is this site. It wasn’t a hard decision to clear five years of content, as the only remaining qualm I would have would be that I’d loses the residual search engine traffic. This approach brought in one–time readers, yes. But those one–time readers generally leave after they get the one thing they were looking for — like locust.

There’s many explanations of this phenomena, from the ‘long tail,’ ‘sith traffic,’ to my locust example. Since most of the search engine data will be out–of–date, they will continue to send people to dead links. That’s the same for old archived stories, linking to nothing. If I were an editor from a high–authority source (such as Salon.com, for instance), I would be hesitant to link to something I’m not perfectly sure will exist in a year, or even five–year’s time.

So my linking policy is made up of a few, good ideas. First, the idea is only link to things as general as possible. If it’s to another site, the link goes as high as possible. That means that if I can send you to the home page, I will. If it takes any deeper, I’ll try to keep it as high as possible.

Thus, a link that would go to a page like othersite.com/journal/index.php/page-name/#more would be worded in such a way as to send you to either that other site’s home page, or to as general a page as possible. In this example, since I needed to specify an individual, deep–linked post, I would have use the link to othersite.com/journal/index.php/page-name/. This should be a rare case, however.

I’m aware that people tend to read blogs and websites because they want to know what other people think. That’s why I watch television, why I read blogs, and why I like a good argument. So making the editorial policy here to keep it as much about what I think is really the best way to not have to worry about where I link. Thus, the linking policy would be that I am relatively sure the site I link to will exist, those links will be rare, and most of the content should be about what I think rather than profuse linking to what other people say.

Undone

The title for this entry comes from the original slug I used when writing my ‘final’ MacStansbury.com blog post. It was simply titled, ‘Done.’ Titling this entry is a play on words, as the meaning of the word is the opposite of the meaning of the title.

On May 17th of 2007, I quit doing this. This — blogging thing. Whatever it is that bloggers do, I stopped.

Now I’ve stopped being ‘stopped.’ I continued fighting the urge to return because I knew that I would face the same internal pressure to perform that burned me out in the first place. That, and the reason I got a website in the first place, Apple, stopped being interesting to me.

After packing up and moving on, there were a couple of failed attempts at group–building. While they were doomed to fail from the start, I bullheadedly kept trying to build my own franchise. The reasons for failure of these social networks were legion, but mostly they came from my social standing.

Internet nobody

These past few months showed me that I was right in thinking I was an internet nobody. Although that appears to be fraught with negative connotations, I see it as a positive. Internet nobodies don’t have an agenda, they don’t sell out, and they don’t have to live up to expectations. In fact, the only person the internet nobody has to please is himself.

That’s why Kevin Rose can show off his new social networking site on a show with 30,000 viewers and add 500 new members by the end of the week. That’s explains how the Huffington Post can garner such a huge audience in such a small time. That’s why famous people can do huge things, while us little people (the nobodies) don’t.

Along with that, the ‘big guys’ can’t get away with some of the things the little guys can. Subtle changes get studied to the Nth degree. Big changes are forever discussed as reasoning for failure for the ones in the spotlight. Every move the popular make is dissected and parsed for every bit of meaning, even where this is none.

For some, they enjoy being the center of attention. For others, they shy away from the limelight. For far too long, I was the latter, while pretending to be the former. I’ve come to the point where my prejudice against the chosen few won’t influence my feeling of success or failure.

I am a nobody, and proud of it.

Big words

The first thing that I realized when returning to do this — whatever ‘this’ is — was that I’ve read lots of very good advice about how to do things. Now, I’ll be the one who knows all that very good advice, and ignores it. You see, since I’m no longer trying for that populist title, I have no reason to express my ideas in any other fashion than the one from inside my head.

This fashion, of course, being the one that doesn’t cater itself to regular blogging. Of late, I’ve been on a linguistic tear, using big words and run–on sentences like my life depended on it. I’ve become familiar with the comma splice, and the fruits of the labor this grammarian has sowed. Too bad it’s too complicated for mass consumption, huh?

The trap was set trying to become an A–lister, and I fell into it. Instead of writing for me, the schedule and the RSS subscribers were the goal. With the focus on the wrong thing, of course the writing suffered. For someone who prides himself on stream–of–consciousness blogging, editing to add keywords and ‘blog–friendly wordings’ in the text just doesn’t work. Then again, short sentences and smaller words don’t help much at all, either.

So this is it, I am undone. This meaning, ‘I am done being done.’ I have stopped being stopped.

We’ll see how this goes.

9 Things I’m Thinking Of Calling Myself

9. Coca-Cola Zero’s number 1 fan!

8. The one guy who didn’t post anything about Reddit/Wired Google/JotSpot

7. Master of Technorati (I don’t think that’d fly, though)

6. The guy who single-handedly moved himself from the Z-list all the way to the M-list, just by the sheer power of his own powers…and abilities…and bones and organs…

5. Pixel Thief

4. Mixmaster MacStanizzlebizzle

3. Joyent shill

2. …anything but late for supper…

1. Prosumer Blogging Expert

9 Things I Did Instead

I was told this week that I needed to post more stuff. It seems that people are not entertained by going through the archives as much as I am, and it’s difficult to listen to my brilliance if you’re not in the same room as me.

Sadly, I don’t intend on getting back to the flood-posting of yesteryear. My heart just isn’t into it, and I’ve found so many other things to do. Some of them are even in the real world. Yes, I even left the house today.

Here’s nine things I did instead of filling a website with my ramblings.

9. Finally got that chair for the front porch built

8. Worked on some new tunes for Macstansbury Records in GarageBand

7. Started assembling datasets for Quantcast

6. Slacked

5. Thought about ideas for the next Podcast, talked to Safety Bear’s agent

4. Tried to figure out how to stick the link to GarageBand from Amazon in here without anybody noticing the affiliate link

3. Got over how hard Safety Bear’s agent laughed at the initial contract price

2. Decided to add another row of tags inside the WordPress admin area, so it’s lookin’ like another tagging weekend for me!

1. Found out Tailrank was working on what I was trying to build long before I came up with the idea - good thing I don’t drink